I feel so HELPLESS
Sunday, July 8 '

I feel so HELPLESS

Came to realise that i'm totally a failure, a loser towards friendship.
I've hav make up so much problem.
I always thought that coming to ngee ann polytechnic means a new life to me. But to realise it. It's not really a start, but is a process. A process of my life.
In every sections of my life. Primary, secondary even polytechnic. I still have the same problem.
When can i stop it. How can i satisfy everyone in my life. My friend.
Although it's good to have so many experience. But it only lead me to have fear in my life.
Laoshi saying "fear is the greatest handicap".
I'm slowly losing my friends.. even my dearest kor.
what can i do. how am i going to do.
why is there always something bothers me. I really tried my best. Why no one see the change. or did i changed? become worst. the best way is to isolate myself? or what.
I really don't know what to do.
I must give in. I'm going to burst soon. YITIAN, help me. can u bring me somewhere there isn't any problem and any frustrating stuff. bring me to melbourne. I had enough.

Today went to jurong east. Had stop by a "promoter" called alfred, to do some survey. Talk so long with him. oh my god. haix.. I really think that I'm a good entertainer..
To be honest, today i didn't do much for my project. Was sorting some stuff. Hope that everything will came out well.
I ask laoshi for help. Really bad at it. Hope everything will be okay.

HELP ME